My Resurrection of God

For a while, I believed in God. Then I didn't. Now I sort of do. I remembered a game I learned at a church retreat. The object of the game is to win as many points as possible. Making a long story short, the message of the game is to not be a hater.

I found it random that such a random game popped into my head. Then I remembered that I did learn a good amount of lessons in church. I thought about why that was. It was because a people had a mindset and taught me that mindset and I agreed with it.

What I mean when I say I sort of believe in God is that I believe in him in sort of a probability way. I believe heaven is a place on Earth. Our goal as human beings is to create heaven where we live. I think we would have to reach a level similar to what Michio Kaku describes as a type 2 or 3 civilization. We'd be able to cure death, capable of galactic travel, able to control weather etc. As an angel, we would able to bestow knowledge and compassion upon lower level civilizations. Teaching them the ways of becoming a type 2 or 3 civilization and then having them help create a bigger heaven. I don't understand all the physics and theories that surround the topic of the creation of the universe but here is my logic.

I'm going to believe in the Bing Bang Theory. It is quite a remarkable that something so vast could all fit into a small point. What's even more remarkable is that a out of that small space of stuff all of this was created. The planets, stars and life all came out of that. This brings the idea of perhaps an intelligent designer created all of this. Then one could argue that one didn't. My argument is that if one didn't then where did all that stuff from the Big Bang come from? We would have to go from literally from nothing to something. Matter created out of thin air. I'm not going to say that it happens a lot but if there was no intelligent designer this is what would have had to happen. Now if the universe can pop out of nothing why couldn't a god? Just because there is no intelligent designer in the beginning doesn't mean there can't be one. Who said God had to be first? Perhaps there was a dimension where it was created out of nowhere, I'm talking about the odds of it happening are just absolutely ridiculous to the point where we can comprehend how often this does not happen. In that dimension, maybe they had a big bang too and maybe their stuff happened to form Gods instead of planets. If our big bang can create a galaxies and planets and water and life, why not a God?

When Nobody is Watching

I know I bring up my goal of attaining "six pack abs" fairly frequently; if not in this blog, then in real life. I know that it doesn't matter if I'm willing to work hard. I have to actually work hard. Willing to do something and doing something are two completely different ideas. Am I willing to win the Lotto, yes. Have I actually won? No. ( In due part of me not playing the Lotto.) You have to be in it to win it.

The hard choices are what define you. Whether it's quitting smoking, learning a new language, working out or even in a relationship. Decisions forged out of your inner soul, when it comes down to it, what do you do?

I am going to have to make some hard choices. To some people they may not be hard, but for me it is. I need to stop spending money on frivolous things and stack cash to buy a house/ put into an IRA. I do not know why I go out clubbing. It's not that fun for me. Perhaps it would be if I was a G, but if I was a G I'd still rather meet a girl that comes into my life via me just doing what I enjoy. There are other ways to meet people.

Don't get me wrong, meeting someone in a club isn't bad or anything. I personally don't enjoy it that much. I have a pretty good time depending on the vibe the people I'm with.

Enough of that, back to the adult stuff. If I can save money toward a down payment on a home and put money in an IRA, it should help me ball way crazier in later on in life. The hard part is sacrificing my youth and somewhat reckless behavior. What If I don't live that long? I hope I do but if I don't? What if theres a catastrophic event in the world and currency is meaningless? What if I just don't want to?

Alas, we do not live in a world of ifs. My current state of mind must be in line with what I know to be true. Paying rent does not add to your assets. Having assets is good. The faster I can stop renting the sooner I can start adding to my own wealth. As it stands, I'm just giving my money away to some company making some other dude rich. I'm already behind where I'd ideally like to be. Working within my means when my means are below the mean feels very constricting.

Time to get tough.

Exact Your Will Upon the World

That is what I must do to realize my goals. I must will it because otherwise my desired outcomes won't come to fruition. I heard from an anime a saying that went along the lines of: It's not what you should do or should not do that counts. It is what you will do that matters.